Life goes on - with or without you.

2009-10-22T22:17:00.002+08:00

1 week into the new sem, and so far, all i can say is the worst is yet to come. But this are going quite alright... looking forward to stuff and all.. and who knows. this sem might actually be a fun one.

" when life gives u lemons, they say make lemonade. But if life doesn't give you sugar and water, enjoy your lemon juice"

2009-10-05T23:25:00.001+08:00

And if it all falls apart, I will know deep in my heart, the only dream that mattered had come true. That in this life, I was loved by you.

2009-10-01T20:50:00.002+08:00

They say the truth will set u free.

They also say the truth hurts..

so wouldn't that mean your living in a free world of hurt?

gah why do i always think so much when i dont need to...i want school to start so i can drag my mind off things (again)

2009-09-11T09:03:00.002+08:00

Another day, another opportunity for the human race to screw themselves up further. Ever wondered why the heck are we all so greedy? so selfish? so insensitive to others? Im sure its definetly not in the genes for humans to be like that.. no.... its all about the environment we grew up in.

Still,. going through what u've been through doesnt give u the privillage to make others go through it again. In fact.. shouldnt u actually be preventing such crap from happening to others? Then again.. the world is full of people like you.

people that dont think.

people that dont question.

people that dont feel.

and just do to their hearts content.

nah. i aint going down again because of people like you. never again. this i promise.

Why?

because it seems like no one in this present age understands the value of being loved anymore and what a blessing it is.

Oh and for the record, because of you, it feels good to underachieve for once. As they say :

The tallest blade of grass is first to be cut by the lawn-mower

2009-08-23T07:46:00.000+08:00

someone once said:

" there are 100s of people out there that are just like me"

yeah i know.. 100s.. in a world we share with , oh.. 6,706,993,152 people...

seriously... what are the chances of me finding someone like you ever again?

Now i know why i can let go.

Now i know why im such a paranoid SOB.

What i DONT know is the difference between blindly loving and loving truely..

2009-08-16T16:52:00.000+08:00

Life. It never waits, it never stops. yet it never fails to amaze me. Even in the darkest of hours, even when i know i'm emotionally at the bottom of the deepest trenches of the ocean. Because everyday is what u make of it. How you can manipulate the worst of scenarios into the greatest achievements.

And thats exactly what i've just done.
Even though it thought of it still haunts me from time to time,
How mundane matters still bring back those moments,
i will not fall into the same position i was before.

The tides have turned...

2009-06-25T20:34:00.002+08:00

Listen to your heart- DHT

I know there's something in the wake of your smile
I get a notion from the look in your eyes, yeah
you've built a love but that love falls apart
your little piece of heaven turns too dark

listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
the precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
they're swept away and nothing is what is seems
the feeling of belonging to your dreams

listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

and there are voices
that want to be heard
so much to mention
but you can't find the words
the scent of magic
the beauty that's been
when love was wilder than the wind

listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

Listen to your heart....mm..mmm

I don't know where you're going
and I don't know why
but listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye

2009-06-16T12:48:00.002+08:00

i just re-lived the past, but im even more torn in the present

2009-05-29T08:30:00.001+08:00

busy busy busy.... sleeping late nights every night. ugh... ( i know to some of u all its not late but for early sleepers like me its way past my bed time. -,- ) anyway... been doing lots of homework and crap.. hopefully it'll all go smoothly. ha.... JC dudes free today. like crap man.. gotta wait till the 15th b4 my turn comes. lol... well... i gtg get ready 4 sch. cyah

2009-05-25T09:28:00.003+08:00

there really is a fine line or no line at all between blind love, and true love. I still cant figure out which one im in....

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Simple Plan- The End

I've been trying to tell you something
But you never understand
I feel like we've been going 'round in circles
You look at me like I've become
A stranger on the streets,
A skeleton that's been hiding in your closet

I see you next to me but still you feel so far away
Where did we go wrong?
(Where did we go wrong?)
I guess this is the part where you look at me
And say goodbye

Don't, don't let me go
It's not the end, whoa
Girl you know it's not so bad
It's not the end, whoa
No it's not the end

I've been around the world
And I've seen so many things
I can't even tell you where I'm going
But no matter where I'm heading
And no matter what I do
Something keeps me coming back to you

I see you next to me but still you feel so far away
Where did we go wrong?
(Where did we go wrong?)
I guess this is the part where you look at me
And say goodbye

Don't, don't let me go
It's not the end, whoa
Girl you know it's not so bad
It's not the end, whoa
You know it's not the end
Don't, don't let me go
It's not the end, whoa
Girl you know it's not so bad
It's not the end, whoa
You know it's not the end

What can I do when you're gone
When it feels so wrong
What can I say
To make you wanna stay
So what can I do
Don't leave me this way
Cause it feels so wrong
Let's stop all these games
Cause I just can't say goodbye

Don't, don't let me go
It's not the end, whoa
Girl you know it's not so bad
It's not the end, whoa
You know it's not the end
Don't, don't let me go
It's not the end, whoa
Girl you know it's not so bad
It's not the end, whoa
You know it's not the end

2009-05-23T22:03:00.002+08:00

just went for volunteer service and i realized that thr are lots of singaporeans that are assholes. but at the same time some really are damn good. both extreme lols...

how can i go on not knowing u might be the only one. maybe thats why letting go is so hard..

2009-05-17T21:03:00.001+08:00

i finally know why im feeling so crappy....

2009-05-16T13:53:00.003+08:00

simple plan- when im with you

I'm Taking My Time,
Im Trying To Leave The Memories Of You Behind,
I'm Gonna Be Fine, As Soon As I Get Your Picture Right Off Of My Mind

I Wanna Feel The Way You Make Me Feel When Im With You,
I Wanna Be The Only Hand You Need to Hold On To,
But Every Time I Call You Dont Have Time,
I guess I'll Never Get To Call You Mine.

Youre Nothing At All
I Know Theres A Million Reasons Why I Shouldnt Call
With Nothing To Say,
Could Easily Make This conversation Last All Day

I Wanna Feel The Way You Make Me Feel When Im With You,
I Wanna Be The Only Hand You Need to Hold On To,
But Every Time I Call You Dont Have Time,
I guess I'll Never Get To Call You Mine.

Another lesson
I couldn't get it to learn
You're my obsession
I got nowhere to turn.

I Wanna Feel The Way You Make Me Feel When Im With You,
I Wanna Be The Only Hand You Need to Hold On To,

I Wanna Feel The Way You Make Me Feel When Im With You,
I Wanna Be The Only Hand You Need to Hold On To,

I Wanna Feel The Way You Make Me Feel When Im With You,
I Wanna Be The Only Hand You Need to Hold On To,

2009-05-12T19:32:00.005+08:00

serviced my com.. ha... anyway been having quite alot of bad luck these few days.. lol. my chi not flowing right way already =X sigh... crappy.. i still got commskills to finish up. ugh... i feel so crappy. well im off to do some more work. cyah.

you'll never know how it feels to be so alone...

"Letting go of someone dear to u is hard, but holding on to someone who doesnt even feel the same is much harder"~from a friend of mine

2009-05-05T21:02:00.003+08:00

my new best friends. google and wikipedia. lol.. damn cant believe i can do all my inorganic chem ws. cant be any simpler.... anyway.. stupid pandemic causing so much hasstle.. sigh but i guess bo bian. eh lam ur principl say can abuse the systm right? just geng swine flu then shut down all the schools. =P i wanna sleep. haha.. duno why im just damn tired these few days. i dropped archery btw. too costly. lol... still in NYAA. hopefully can get scouts as external cca. well im off. cyah~ (AAR owns all )

2009-05-03T21:32:00.002+08:00

even this 3 day holiday seems like eternity. school starting tomorrow. hope it'll preoccupy my time. anyway.. archery starts wed, but no news from nyaa yet... damn. ha. ok anyway 1 more month b4 wee's out of solitary confinement. so in the june hols hope thrs smt planned out.

2009-04-28T17:40:00.002+08:00

Telling me to go
But hands beg me to stay
Your lips say that you love
Your eyes say that you hate

There's truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
What you've built you laid to waste
There's truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
All I've got's what you didn't take

So I, I won't be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces
And you, you will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets

Don't lie

You promise me the sky
Then toss me like a stone
You wrap me in your arms
And chill me to the bone

There's truth in your lies
Doubt in your faith
All I've got's what you didn't take

So I, I won't be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces

And you, you will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets

Don't lie

So I, I won't be the one
Be the one to leave this
In pieces

And you, you will be alone
Alone with all your secrets
And regrets

Don't lie

2009-04-26T12:16:00.001+08:00

i thought u knew me well enough. well i though wrong. im just gonna shut myself off from the rest of the world again. so long, and goodbye...

2009-04-23T20:41:00.001+08:00

archery, or NYAA? ( which in my opinion owns adventureclub =P no insult)

i think i just need some reassurance from you..

2009-04-20T21:13:00.003+08:00

sch was great so to say. haha.... looking forward to it luh. which is good... i've got nothing much to look forward to anyway.. anyway today had 3 hours of slacking inbetween lessons so went down to hub with my classmates to cre8 my new ezlink.. haha.. last lesson was canceled so yep. ended sch at 7. lol.. tomorrow is nothing but math, and chem. the math and chem day. haha..

im missing you so much. if only it was 1 year back it'll be so much better eh?. haha. anyway good luck for tomorrow!

2009-04-16T18:15:00.000+08:00

sch's starting next week. somewhat happy that there's something for me to do. but yeah dun wanna new environment. just gotta change with it i guess. super extreamly bored at home doing the same old thing agian. life's so routine now.. but heck. its all gonna change on monday onwards. yay...

somehow, the thought of not wanting holidays is gonna come back and bite me. i know it. but oh well. haha...

told u everything was gonna be ok.

2009-04-12T19:21:00.000+08:00

i dont want the attention.. i just want to live life the way it is... but i guess life isint life without hardships and pain... anyway. things are once again "the usual" nothing much... really nothing left to do at home. but yet i dun feel like going out. hah. crap luh. not here nor there... well guess im off to watch yet another movie. =) cyah.

missed you! smile ya? everythin's gonna be just fine. =)

2009-04-09T18:55:00.000+08:00

super tiring week.. came back from the topo camp. real torture.... until now my arms and legs are still aching luh.. sigh. poly orient was so-so.. nothing much.. yeah... somehow my class is nothing compared to sec sch though. but oh well. haha.. i feel like retreating to myself to mug my 3 years away. dont know why.... we'll see when time moves on...

just to let you know, no matter where we are, or if everything is falling apart, i'll always want to be with you..

2009-04-02T21:22:00.001+08:00

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow old through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

2009-03-31T19:36:00.000+08:00

you know what? i guess we ARE opposites. i care too much while u care too little..

2009-03-29T12:04:00.000+08:00

earth hour. i figured after 9.30, it would be back to the same old world where every1 starts to rip the earth apart again... well.... guess everything needs a start.

2009-03-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

AAR- another heart calls
truly an epic song, along with its epic album "when the world comes down"

Do you remember when we didn't care?
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there

Do you remember you at all?
Another heart calls

I remember when we stole the night
We'd lie awake dreaming 'til the sun would wash the sky

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I didn't I tell you

As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

What can I do
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

Talk to me
I'm throwing myself in front of you
This could be the last mistake that I would ever want to do
All I ever do is give
It's time you see my point of view

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You want to leave it all

What can I do?
Say it's true
Or Everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

All you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do too
What can I do
Say It's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

I'm sorry
So what?
But you don't think I've said enough
I'm sorry
I don't care
You were never there

Just as soon as I see you
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all

What can I do?
Say it's true
Or Everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

All you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do too
What can I do?
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you

I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you
I'll never ask for anyone but you

2009-03-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

and so as my life continues its extremely depressing circle of depression, i realized that for the past ,what, 4 or 5 days i cant manage to get a good nights sleep. damn. sure as hell feels like my mind wants me to suffer abit longer by not letting me sleep. on the bright side, i guess i'll be going for a semi-torture camp on the 4th and 5th. WHICH is damn bloody good cuz it like gonna make me focus away on them negative crap and all.. not to mention i SHOULD get some sleep after that. and then the next thing to look forward to is the poly orientation programme. guess its gonna be interesting luh. hahas.

fase hopes and impressions are even more terrible then the truth itself.

2009-03-08T09:29:00.001+08:00

they say one of the best things u can have in love is trust... i dont know if i still have that much left in you anymore

2009-03-05T16:17:00.000+08:00

who knew slacking would be so torturous?

2009-03-03T09:21:00.001+08:00

we'll all figure out soon now or later, that the hardest part is not so much of opening the door, but closing it

2009-02-28T19:53:00.000+08:00

we cruised along at 1/2 speed.. but then we shifted gears.

horrible night last night... horrible day today. and i dont know if yesterday should be considered horrible or fantastic. crap... im such a friggin pessimist. even over the smallest of things i can tear myself apart.

Fate. Is there really such a thing? at first i keep thinking its us that choose our own fate.. but im starting to reconsider.. maybe its really something we cant control.. a plan already made for us to follow without knowing. maybe thats why im been so down for these few years.. maybe its because i try to create my own fate.... so forget " i reject reality and substitute my own". cuz from now on, im gonna be care-frickin-free.

2009-02-19T16:24:00.000+08:00

and so i guess its another year of being a member of the SCA ( singles club association)... its as easy breaking some1s heart as it is breaking your own. but i guess we cant sit on the fence eh.. owell. cant ask for much anyway... guess i dont even know myself as well as i though i would.

2009-02-18T16:42:00.000+08:00

why are schools ONLY focused on getting better aggrgate? Why is the MOE making all these implementations on the schs? why are parents only concerned that the kids bring back only As and nothing else? WHY THE FLYING ___ is society allowing this in the 1st place? ok it may not be the case for some schools. but still... all i see nowadays are just kids that can merely read off a book. if its not in the book, its not important. some teachers as well.. why are we grooming kids to become walking pieces of crap? sch, tutions, homework.. ffs i know education is important yes, but not to that extend where freedom is nearly removed from their lives. Horrible to grow up in this kinda society.. and im never gonna put my kid ( if i have one ) through that, cuz i think teaching them to be HUMAN is 100% better than teaching them to be nothing but bookworms that have no balls to stand up for their rights, and no sense of just about any other thing. i mean... besides earing money, they cant do nuts.

2009-02-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

busy busy busy.. CWSS camp was great, scouts is still going downhill, and thrs work tomorrow. yep.. finally.. something that has NOTHING to do with slacking at home. =P well. i gotta go. needa wake up early tomorrow. Cya~

2009-02-15T00:54:00.000+08:00

So clever,
Whatever,
I'm done with these endeavors.
Alone I walk the winding way.
(Here I stay)
It's over,
No longer,
I feel it growing stronger.
I'll live to die another day,
Until I fade away.

Why give up, why give in?
It's not enough, it never is.
So I will go on until the end.
We've become desolate.
It's not enough, it never is.
But I will go on until the end.

Surround me,
It's easy
To fall apart completely.
I feel you creeping up again.
(In my head)
It's over,
No longer,
I feel it growing colder.
I knew this day would come to end,
So let this life begin.

Why give up, why give in?
It's not enough, it never is.
So I will go on until the end.
We've become desolate.
It's not enough, it never is.
But I will go on until the end.

I've lost my way.
I've lost my way, but I will go on until the end.

Living is hard enough
Without you fucking up.

Why give up, why give in?
It's not enough, it never is.
So I will go on until the end.
We've become desolate.
It's not enough, it never is.
But I will go on until the end.

I've lost my way.
I've lost my way, but I will go on until the end.

U-uh, u-uh

The final fight I'll win,
The final fight I'll win,
The final fight I'll win,
But I will go on until the end.

Breaking Benjamin- until the end.

2009-02-09T14:42:00.000+08:00

AAR- believe

I don't ever want to believe
I don't ever want to believe yeah
That when we die
We all leave

Your innocence is not forgotten
I hope you know that where you are I wish you well
I hope you sleep in a perfect memory
You know it's hard I tried
I could never say goodbye

I don't ever wanna believe
I don't ever wanna believe yeah
That when we die
We all leave
I don't ever wanna let go
I hope that you see yeah
That there's a part of you that's left inside of me

Yesterday just took me hostage
Yesterday locked me away from any truth
And now tomorrow's here without you
I know it's hard I've tried
I could never say goodbye

I don't ever wanna believe
I don't ever wanna believe yeah
That when we die
We all leave
I don't ever wanna let go
I hope that you see yeah
That there's a part of you that's left inside of me
That there's a part of you that left inside

I try to push you away
But you never push back
You know I'll never forget you
I never thought I'd say that
You made a mess out of me

I don't ever wanna believe
I don't ever wanna believe yeah
That when we die
That we all leave

I don't ever wanna believe
I don't ever wanna believe yeah
That when we die
That we all leave

I don't ever wanna let go
I hope that you see yeah

That there's a part of you that's left inside of me
That there's a part of you that's left inside of me
That there's a part of you that's left inside of me
That there's a part of you that's left inside of me

2009-02-09T09:16:00.000+08:00

that was either my best decision, or my worst in my life : to let you go

2009-02-08T10:19:00.000+08:00

i know being a pessimist isnt good... but in these situations, being an optimist isint a good idea either...

2009-02-07T21:40:00.000+08:00

feeling screwed now.. i dont know what... argh. why the heck am i feeling so horrible?! i know its because of the usual matters but i didnt expect it to reach these levels of intensity..

anyways.. superb boring day today.. watched dejavu, resident evil 1, 2 and 3. hahas.. yes no life i know.. but what the heck. and damn the diffrence in RE1 and 3 is WTF man! from a bunch of crappy walking zombies to a bunch of crappy zombies but with a bit more cool facials. haha. well back to watching.. cya..

hope this sucky feeling goes away. PERMANENTLY. but yet i dont know how to do it.

2009-02-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

love is a "camouflaged never ending pit of doom" in which u can easily fall into, but cant get out... starting to feel low again... damn. well just hope i dont enter that stage again..

2009-02-05T19:08:00.000+08:00

well.. average day today, yesterday was great though, due to certain reasons which i would not go in depth to... man its boring...

perhaps this will give u a better feeling by what
i mean LARGEST trees...

i really really miss you, and seriously.. you cant seem to get out of my mind. i hope for our sake that nothing happens again , cuz if it does, i cant see how im gonna recover from it..

2009-02-03T20:40:00.000+08:00

good day today ( surprise surprise!) lols.. work was great. saw lots of stuff. ( including the flying lemur which sadly i couldnt take a shot of.) after that trekked down to sch for scouts. NOTE TO SCOUTS : pls, buck up.. cuz ur discipline is crap... your just lucky im having a good day.

yeah.. hope tomorrow and the weeks to come will be the same. =)

2 of the largest trees in the area... too bad cant really see the size

quite obvious its a stick insect...

this guy is HUGE, i swear. its as bigger than my palm

Mr.big- stay together

It's shame
That our paths should have crossed so young
Who's to blame
For the tears and the damage done

All I know
Is I can't forget the time we had
And I'm sorry if it turned out bad

Even though I want you
Even though I need you
Even though my heart is screaming
Still believing
We could fall in love

Even though I want you
Even though I need you
Even though we won't find better
We can't stay together

Tell me why
There were secrets you never told oh, no
It's a crime
The cliche of a love gone old

All I know
Is I've given all I can to you
And there's nothing more that I can do

Even though I want you
Even though I need you
Even though my heart is screaming
Still believing
We could fall in love

Even though I want you
Even though I need you
Even though we won't find better
We can't stay together

It's all right
Happiness only comes to few
But in time you may find it in someone new

Solo

Even though I want you
Even though I need you
Even though my heart is screaming
Still believing
We could fall in love

Even though I want you
Even though I need you
Even though we won't find better
We can't stay together

Stay together
Stay together
Ow!

2009-01-31T23:22:00.000+08:00

finally... a chance to get out of the house... i've been told not to coop myself at home cuz its a for sure way to die.. so yeah. went out to ponggol end... and damn, that place brings back hell lots of memory. from the torturous PLTC which in just 1 night turned us into zombies ( by that i mean serious lack of sleep (around 2 hrs or less for 2 days), non-stop physical activities and hardcore screwing with your mind ) , to the fantastic OBS i went to. and somehow, somewhat, back to you..

damn.. either im not trying hard enough to get u out, or i really cant. how is it possible that your in my mind for so long? this is so much harder than i though.. geeze....

well... anyways.. hang around till late watching movies and enjoying the breeze with the usuals.. this IS, afterall, going to be what i think is the last final time being SCHOOL-LESS together... so they'd better enjoy while they can eh? =p haha. man i still got 1 more month of hardcore slacking b4 they start sending me the info. and im still clueless on what im gonna do till then..

gonna slack some more then. cyah
-loh.

2009-01-31T16:14:00.000+08:00

"Somewhere in the distance
There's a place for me to go
I don't want you to hate me
But I think you need to know
~~You're weighing on my shoulders~~
And I'm sick of feeling down
So I guess it's time for me to say goodbye..."

2009-01-24T16:19:00.001+08:00

sigh.. i feel so lost... what should i do? fate? should i put everything i've got into something that no one really knows is there? what if both our fates are diffrent? wont i be losing everything? ugh..
i dont want this flame to die off..... but i guess ur not keen on getting it back up again.... sigh. feeling like crap. i need something to pre-occupy my mind from drifting to such subjects. every damn thing around me seems to be like its working like clockwork except for me.. somehow its like rubbing it in..

i miss you and past...

2009-01-20T21:45:00.001+08:00

guess this is really the LOWEST point in my life..... sigh. seriously.... it sucks to be me right now. it sucks to the core.... im at a lost.. ugh.. i just wish u knew how is it to be me in this kinda really ____ed position

and its all because of one person

2009-01-03T18:57:00.000+08:00

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
(Was it something I did?)
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

i doubt you'll be reading this anyway....

2008-12-25T20:34:00.000+08:00

feel kinda bad not getting anything for you guys (esp the scouts). so sorry. will try to make it up to ya alright? i hate shopping for presents.. theres always the questions of "what if"... well.. that explains why i seldom get people stuff.... once again, my personallity is getting in the way. ( wow, what a surprise..........)

all i can say is thanks alot guys and girls for whatever presents you hav given to me. i'll find a way to repay u all soon enough. merry christmas to you

all i want for christmas, is you

2008-12-20T20:21:00.000+08:00

man... weird to see what you want to happen to yourself is happening to everyone else OTHER than you. lols... i guess its like that. just like the damn taxis. when u want them, their not around.. when u dont want them, they somehow seem to be all over the place.

2008-12-19T08:41:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey
Hey Hey

Sometimes I feel like everybody's got a problem
Sometimes I feel like nobody wants to solve them
I know that people say we're never going to make it
But I know we're going to get through this
(Close your eyes and please don't let me go)
Don't, Don't, Don't,
Don't let me go now
(Close your eyes don't let me let you go)
Don't, Don't, Don't

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

The city sleeps and we're lost in the moment
Another kiss says we're lying on the pavement
If they could see us they would tell us that we're crazy
But I know they just don't understand
(Close your eyes and please don't let me go)
Don't, Don't, Don't,
Don't let me go now
(Close your eyes don't let me let you go)
Don't, Don't, Don't

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

Hey Hey
Hey Hey

The raindrops
The tears keep falling
I see your face and it keeps me going
If I get lost your light's going to guide me
And I know that you can take me home
You can take me home

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
(Love will never die)
Take my hand tonight
One last time

2008-12-18T21:16:00.001+08:00

back from japan. freezing cold there.. but enjoyed it though. too bad had to spend most of the time at disney land AGAIN. lols.

youve always been on my mind, even more in the cold wet and miserable climate.. i just wanna know if what we have is still real. not saying i dont trust you or anything. i guess i just need your reassurance.

2008-12-09T19:32:00.001+08:00

i love my job. AND NO, IM NOT BEING SARCASTIC. lols

2008-12-05T20:18:00.000+08:00

well, your still oblivious to it. i guess thats good. too bad life cant be as simple like those love stories with a happy ending huh.. haha oh well. CBF about that anyway.. ok gab, time to fk the past, and move towards a better future. =D

cyah when i cya

2008-12-02T18:46:00.000+08:00

back from work. tired but fun... guess its cuz i worked like freaking blangla worker yst.... but its all good. trying to sign up for the fuana field reaserch. hope its sucessfull. =)

why the heck am i in love with u again!? after that event i think i fell in love with the wrong person... these few days really changed the way i see. fked up love

2008-11-21T20:56:00.000+08:00

back from paintball with the guys and yiqi and xq. and yes it was hell of a time. aft that went to play billards and down to AMK for fishco. another day well spent i guess. hahas.

ever felt like when u dont have something everyone around u has it? and then just when u have it, everyone around u has a BETTER one than you? damn if life's like that then its a very very sad life. LEARN TO BE CONTENTED WITH THE THINGS YOU HAVE. before u lose it all.

2008-11-20T18:30:00.000+08:00

why cant i just let go?? ugh.... i guess my mood affected what i wanted to do during the camp...... sigh... i hate myself for that...

2008-11-16T09:26:00.000+08:00

well now i know.... if you gain some, you'll gain ALOT. but once you lose one, you lose the rest too... and damn that sucks

2008-11-15T11:31:00.000+08:00

ever had the feeling where something you need is always gone in times where u need it the most?

2008-11-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

this bloody thing here cost what. 10 bucks?! for bread and vegetables. 10 bucks... what a rip of. haha just jokin.... its actually the work of 6 bored guys "studying" for chem at tp. lol.... made up of poor quality veges frm burger's, lams 1/2 eaten bun with coleslaw in it( dont ask me why he likes coleslaw in his bread) and welll other random things we could find... haha. and they DID sell smt similar.. and it was 10+.... amazing how much they charge for just vegetables...

2008-11-12T19:48:00.000+08:00

isit worth scarificing a whole lot of 30 plus people just because of 1 person? theres a fine line between a gamble and a risk... and it so happens we hav to work along that line.. so guys... even if we dont get the co-operation we need... will the willingness and eagerness of 30 other people be rejected as well? or should we take a lead?... because whatever we do now determines the future of not only us but the rest.

now i dont know if i can put off with myself for making the wrong choice...

2008-11-11T20:20:00.000+08:00

tomorrow last paper! whooo!!!!! and then its finally over.....haha. dont know what i'll do with all the free time... lols.. hopefully something productive luh.. so far the skirtians hav been doing pioneering for npc. so i'll prob drop by to help or smt.. i duno.....

~paintball
~lan
~WoW
~endwar
~prom
~job
~prenpccamp
~kayaking
~self-initiated camp

i guess ther will still be ALOT of time left...haha...

well gotta go. cya!

2008-10-31T22:26:00.001+08:00

without you, its like without a loved one.
oh wait...you ARE a loved one....

*mind blank*

bored stiff, dont feel like studying, but yet O's arnt over...

well, what is there to do?

gotta move on with life
cuz life moves on with, or without you.

2008-10-30T19:37:00.000+08:00

will things ever be the same again? i feel life has grinded to a halt here... sigh.. i really wish it would.. i really do......

2008-10-23T09:22:00.000+08:00

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me

Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be

2008-10-21T20:07:00.000+08:00

english is HISTORY! yay!!!! haha.. tomorrow is Amath.. hmm... what am i still doing here then. oO lol haha.. cyah~ all e best for whatever thing ur doing.

2008-10-20T18:45:00.000+08:00

ok chem paper 2 down! 1 more month till chem paper 1. lols.... ok. this week is a mad rush.. amath paper1,2, eng paper 1,2, geog paper 1, emath paper 1. sigh.... oh well. no choice. =)

i breath a sign of relief as i feel much better thn before. i wish i'll never feel that way again.

2008-10-11T15:07:00.000+08:00

ok so now im officially "school-less". lols. graduated yesterday and yeah. good and bad... been a heck of a 4 years with billions of ups and downs.. hopefully my life wont be tossed around like a yatch in a hurricane again....so now whats left is O's and its all over. apparently lost motivation to study.. what a bad time.... lol. haha anyways.. hope u peeps out there enjoy ur life in sec sch, cuz u only got 1 chance at it. so treasure it and make the best of it. i wish u guys all the luck. =D i'll see ya when i see ya~

4E3 '08

2008-10-04T20:06:00.000+08:00

ha... when other ppls life gets better by the moment, mine goes up and down.. drifting in between happiness and sadness. oh well. what can i say anyway? haha. so now left with like. . 16 days? or smt before chemP2 "o" lvl.. lets get this over and done with.... hope you guys are doing good with ur EOYs or other exams/ revisons. cya~

2008-09-26T18:58:00.001+08:00

well, they say " dun put all ur eggs in 1 basket" yes i know.... but if u put them in many...it aint easy to manage all... and in the end? they have a higher chances of being unwatched.. if we put them all in 1 basket, then at least we can focus all our attention to it rather thn to so many baskets. guess this applies to humans too.... diversify too much, and u end up with crap ppl. put them all together, and AT LEAST u'll get afew outspoken ones......

2008-09-22T21:27:00.000+08:00

i'll face myself... and cross out what i've become.

today this ends...

2008-09-21T13:46:00.001+08:00

arrrrgh... feel my life's getting fked up. everything is yet again screwing up! ffs its like im trapped in this never ending cycle... and why the fk do i always play the asshole?! ugh.. sorry to those who see me like an asshole or whatever u call it... i never ment to be that. with so much things just screwing up since last year and me being caught up in it... i guess im just not who i used to be...

and dogs do help ppl to chill.... i guess im just troubled and paranoid .. what a way to live life huh........

im not doing this shit for a fking popularity contest... thts nt what im here for. i dun give a shit if im popular or if im hated .and i certianly dont giv a damn if ur more "popular". so pls. just leave me the heck alone. i just wanna do everyone some good. i dont want their life to screw up just like mine or urs. i hope u can see this as clearly as me.....

"When did I lose my sense of purpose?Can I regain what's lost inside?"

2008-09-19T16:01:00.000+08:00

just learned another few things today...

1) give some1 something he doesnt have in the past just like that, and he will misuse and abuse it, just to make sure he will continue to have it...

2) as long as i know what im doing is right, nothing else matters to me. nothing is gonna cloud my judgement or what im going to do...

guess not many people know me well enough to know what im really going though...
once again, im back to my miserable self.. but at least now i know why... time to right the wrongs in my life...

2008-09-16T14:26:00.000+08:00

well. got some results back today... nothing fantastic though..ugh haha.... kinda sucky anyway.... so yea.. hopefully can get more a1s. haha... nth else to blog already.. too little things happening nowadays to blog... BORING time of my life..

2008-09-13T23:23:00.001+08:00

realized how scouts is screwing up my life. lol..... oh how i loath to think abit all that shit now.......

"i bleed it out, digging deeper, just to throw it away"~ Bleed It Out, LP
also just realized how LP's songs relates to how im feeling..

also realized im realizing alot of things nowadays....hmm... strange....

2008-09-11T19:44:00.000+08:00

GEOG left for this week. =) yay! prelimes= almost over. monday chem p1 and phy p1.. tomorrow gonna *celebrate* some1s birthday. [ remind me to try and get hold of some ducktape] lols. haha.... almost at Os already.. stupid yellow board hanging outside the hall is super demoralizing... its ment to make us feel frightened and study more. NOT WOKING! maybe the sch shd use reverse phsycology... maybe they shd hire lam... lol. anyway, im off to slack...cya.

2008-09-08T15:22:00.000+08:00

im bored, im tired, and i dun wanna study. lol... haha..shit thats a bad sign...oh well....downed emath and amath today... and guess whats on tomorrow? PHYSICS P2 AND HIST...what a wonderful combination.... im sure we "CAN" all remember every damn thing stalin did to improve russia, hitlers foreign policys, the truman and marshal plan, rest of cold war, treaty, japan, life aft ww2, leauge of nations, W=PT, F-f=ma, P=f/a, p1v1=p2v2 , brownian motion, and other stuff, and spill it all out in 1 day. yeah no problem. no kicks. =) how i wish i can say that lah....haha... well. gtg memorise it all.... blog some other time then.....

2008-08-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

Are you lost
In your lies
Do you tell yourself I don't realize
Your crusade's a disguise
Replace freedom with fear
You trade money for lives
I'm aware of what you've done

No, no more sorrow
I've paid for your mistakes
Your time is borrowed
Your time has come to be replaced

I see pain
I see need
I see liars and thieves
Abuse power with greed
I had hope
I believed
But I'm beginning to think that I've been deceived
You will pay for what you've done

No, no more sorrow
I've paid for your mistakes
Your time is borrowed
Your time has come to be replaced

Thieves and hypocrites
Thieves and hypocrites
Thieves and hypocrites

No more sorrowI've paid for your mistakes
Your time is borrowed
Your time has come to be replaced

No more sorrow
I've paid for your mistakes
Your time is borrowed
Your time has come to be replaced

Your time has come to be replaced
Your time has come to be erased

damn this is excatly how i feel.

2008-08-18T19:31:00.000+08:00

"The drones all slave away, they’re working overtime,
They serve a faceless queen, they never question why."

2008-08-15T20:08:00.000+08:00

feeling more fked up thn before... arrrgh how come im feeling this way? im starting to regret everything i've done.. crap man... im being haunted by my past.... i thought i had it all wiped out?? gosh.. i'd really like to know whats happening.. =(

2008-08-13T19:08:00.001+08:00

feel pretty much downheartened. guess i made a hell lot of mistakes during my life. XD but as they say:

"A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable but more useful than a life spent in doing nothing."

so yep. hahas... i guess i'll fix my life back after o's. =D hope for the best, prepare for the worst. haha. gtg study ( again )......

[forever in the shadows...]

2008-08-05T18:51:00.000+08:00

My insides all turned to ash
So slow
And blew away as I collapsed
So cold
A black wind took them away
From sight
And now the darkness over day
that night
And the clouds above move closer,
looking so dissatisfied
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

I used to be my own protection
But not now
Cause my path had lost direction
Somehow
A black wind took you away
From sight
And now the darkness over day
That night

And the clouds above more closer
looking so dissatisfied
and the ground below grew colder
as they put you down inside
but the heartless wind kept blowing,
blowing

So now you're gone
And I was wrong
I never knew what it was like
To be alone

On a Valentine's Day,On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day,On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day
(I used to be my own protection)
On a Valentine's Day
(But not now)
On a Valentine's Day
(Cause my mind has lost direction)
On a Valentine's Day
(somehow)
On a Valentine's Day
(I used to be my own protection)
On a Valentine's Day
(But not now)
On a Valentine's Day
(Cause my mind has lost direction)
On a Valentine's Day
(Somehow)

2008-08-02T21:12:00.000+08:00

=( guess i was right... what goes up must come down i guess. haha..

2008-08-01T17:01:00.000+08:00

AHHHH!!!! cant go kayaking... =( sigh... sucks to be sec 4... anyways.. hopefully can go EOY after stupid exams... now cant do alot of things man... everytime is study study study... bloody routine life.. another what 20 plus days to prelim.. and 80 to o's? i dont know.. im bad with time. lol.. then still must go through another 2weeks of exams before i can finally go lose. haha.... anyways. hope u guys enjoy yourselves getting tan and all.. cyah~

2008-07-21T18:16:00.000+08:00

my mind's made up... and thats what im gonna do. hopefully it'll go well. hahas. XD schs very taxing on my mind... super tired man.... haha. not to mention test here and there... most of the teachers covered the syllibus already. so yeah... revision.. sigh. geog test on wed, chem on fri.. and math..on some random day whr mr goh wishes to do his top 10 again, of telling us the test is on the very next day or smt like that... well. off to study geog,which SA-HU SIEN SENG HAVENT FINISHED TEACHING....lol. cyah... have fun. =P

2008-07-14T20:02:00.000+08:00

hey guys... i guess im happier nowadays. =) haha. well...had to make the painfull choice soon now or later.... so yep. guess you wont see much of me anymore.. but i'll still be here though, ready to lend a helping hand or a listening ear. perhaps i was too parnoid by the scars left on me that i diddnt want to let another go through it. but seeing the situation..well. haha. anyways. hope u guys have fun. =D i'll always be here though..

im just waiting for the right time.

2008-07-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

so..qn is.. is it all worth it? i dont know.... im split into 1/2. haha..... half of me wants to wash my hands off, half wants to make sure that they have a good memory and a good life. hard to say which side will triumph.... guess thats whats causing me to be so.. "blackface" hahaha..

glad its my last year in peirce... dont want to stay any longer in this "police state". like what my friend said: " their making me hate them"

lol... agreed... =)

2008-06-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

Good charlotte-Hold on
This world
This world is cold
But you don't
You don't have to go
You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care
Your mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know

Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to know more
And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to know more

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on

What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...What are you waiting for?

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Hold on

2008-06-23T18:28:00.000+08:00

studies, work, sch, scouts. gosh... singaporeans life is stressfull.and im still holding extra lessons? ha. isit all worth? im begining to question my choice. not many gives a friggin damn anymore. anyway...if u really arnt there to learn i suggest you go do something more meaningful in ur life or smt. dont waste my effort already. my efforts are already being streched thin.. so make life easier for me. those who wanna complain, dun feel like waking up, come thr do nothing, dun wanna learn, please..dont come. thanks.

2008-06-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

hope we chose the right move...eh guys? we basicly gambled our way through to it. its our best bet....just wish we wern't in such a difficult situation.. and under so little time...sigh.lets just hope for the best, and prepare for the worst then...its either going to go against us, or with us..

2008-06-16T20:03:00.000+08:00

i just cant bear to give up something thats in my life for 8 years..something i hav worked so hard for..something i would die for...and now i just have to give it all up? just like that? i just cant do that......everyone i've come to know..in fact, all my best friends too....everything i've learnt. everything i am toady..is due to it. now i feel its slowly disintegrating...tearing up..ripping into tiny little pieces....being thrown in the drain, and washed away by the water..i just dont know what i can do now. i feel so helpless!!!! arrrrgh....i cant give it all. not because i dont want to, its because i cant afford to.... nothing can describe how i feel now...

2008-06-10T19:05:00.000+08:00

well...back to sch....its as good as starting normal sch already.. sigh. there goes my break...not gonna blog anymore i guess...
i feel like a jerk.

2008-06-08T08:12:00.000+08:00

back frm the trip to the philippines. one of the best camps i've went so far. and im glad i went. =) did lots of new stuff like survival training and hiking up a volcano and ect ect.....loads of fun. 7 days was just not enough..hahas. tell you in more details personally..cant possibly type it all here. lol

2008-06-07T21:16:00.000+08:00

Set me off like dynamite strapped tight around my waist
We are the ones in competition but claim this ain't no race

(Let's go!)

Take a breath and explode like bullets
Tearing through the wind
Cut me up with a razor blade
That tries to separate the skin

Now in the
White flames of burning flags
We found a world worth dying for, yeah
We've been battered so hard that
We don't feel anymore

Take me
From this world
Save me
What if we
All die young
So take me
From this world
Save me
What if we
All die young

Send me off on the morning breeze so far away from here
feel me rise in the strength I've found inside the warm embracing air
I'm moving slow
Like a glacier melting
Watch me dissipate
I searched for love in an empty world
But all I found was hate

Now in the
White flames of burning flags
We found a world worth dying for, yeah
We've been battered so hard that
We don't feel anymore

Take me
From this world
Save me
What if we
All die young
So take me
From this world
Save me
What if we
All die young

Don't ask me why
'Cuz I don't know
Don't ask me how
I'm gonna solve this on my own
Don't ask me why
'Cuz I don't know
These things I'll never face
Scratch out but won't erase
In the wreckage of a job well done
I saw a place I'd never seen before, yeah
In that moment I refused to close my eyes anymore

So Take me
From this world
Save me
What if we
All die young
So take me
From this world
Save me
What if we
All die young

So take me

2008-05-28T09:07:00.001+08:00

2008-05-21T19:45:00.000+08:00

Rise Against- survive

Somewhere between happy, and total f**king wreck
Feet sometimes on solid ground, sometimes at the edge
Spend your waking moments, simply counting time
Is to Give up on your hopes and dreams, give up on your…

Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We’ve all been sorry, we’ve all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are

An obvious disinterest, I barely managed smile
A deep nod in agreement, a status quo exile
I shrink my obligations,
I miss all your deadlines
I excel at quitting early, cus' your f**king up my life

Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We’ve all been sorry, we’ve all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are

All smiles and sunshine, a perfect world on a perfect day
Everything always works out,
I have never felt so f**king great

All smiles and sunshine, a perfect world on a perfect day
Everything always works out,
I have never felt so great

Life isn't like this
Are we verging on an answer, or f**king up our...

Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We’ve all been sorry, we’ve all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are (Who we are)
It’s what makes us who we are (Who we are)
Makes us who we are (Who we are)
It’s what makes us who we are (Who we are)

2008-05-15T19:18:00.000+08:00

ugh. stuid problems...they always claim that their right....always complaining. people will never be happy..

2008-05-09T22:04:00.001+08:00

One last thing I beg you please just before you go
I've watched you fly on paper wings halfway around the world
Until they burned up in the atmosphere
and sent you spiraling down
landing somewhere far from here
with no one else around
to catch you falling down
and I'm looking at you now

and I can't tell if you're laughing
between each smile there's a tear in your eye
there's a train leaving town in an hour
it's not waiting for you,
and neither am I

"Swing for the fences, son" he must have told you once
but that was a conversation you took nothing from
so raise your glass now, lets celebrate exactly what you've done
just put off another day of knowing where you're from
you can catch up with yourself
if you run...

and I can't tell if you're laughing
between each smile there's a tear in your eye
there's a train leaving town in an hour
it's not waiting for you,
and neither am I

is this the life that you lead,
or the life that's lead for you?
will you take the road
that's been laid out before you?
will we cross paths
somewhere else tonight?
somewhere else tonight...

and I can't tell if you're laughing
between each smile there's a tear in your eye
there's a train leaving town in an hour
it's not waiting for you,
and neither am I

2008-05-09T13:20:00.000+08:00

well...thrs nth much to post about..besides exams luh...overall...should be ok. i hope...hahaha. hmm.yeah..chem was a killer...along with amath. other thn that yeah. not much nice movies out this time of year...wasted. so far the only 1 that caught my eye was the las vegas 1. forgot the title. lol... chinese o's on the 28. which means intensice chi during sch..3 hrs of chinese...ouch. i wont be blogging much nowadays. so yeah...dun need to keep coming back to check if i posted =D

2008-04-25T18:13:00.000+08:00

ok good to know problem solved for now. and also good to know that some1 has offered to help..that relieves some stress off me. phew. i can finally catch my breath again. thanks. anyway exams on monday. good luck peepes! have fun. =)